Sunday, March 13, 2011

What Next?

Does anyone ever wonder why things always seem to happen when your not expecting anything to happen?  I seem to have a problem with that question always.   I just want to do whats right and go about my business without any hassles or worries, be kind to my fellow man and live my life.  Seems that I always end up with a lap full of problems or dilemas that I have to solve or deal with whether I like it or not.  

I should have made my career in nursing instead of in computers, or I should have entered the monastery for nuns or sisters.  My calling should have been that as of Mother Teresa.

All joking aside I really am close to tears every day.  Taking care of my mother for months while she was sick with dementia and many other ailments and then going thru the emotional period when she died.   I tried to be strong and only release my grief at night or when I knew I was alone.   After these few months I thought that finally I could just go on with my every day life.  Wrong!!  There is still one parent left........... my dad.  He has been a lost soul since my mom passed away and while not really being a bother to me he is just plain uncooperative with any suggestions I make.

One good example of that is when he fell in December he was very stubborn about letting me make an appointment to see a doctor.   In mid January after coming home from church one Sunday and finding him in excruciating pain I convinced him he should go to the emergency room.  He was in so much pain he couldn't hardly get up from bed that he finally gave in and agreed to let me take him.   X-rays showed nothing broken only that he had contusions and bruising.   Visits with his primary doctor were scheduled.  Just in time thank God because he has a wound on his left ankle that he never mentioned to me or anyone else.  Come to think of it maybe he mentioned it to my brother hhmmm.   The doctor showed dad how to clean the wound and gave him an ointment to put on it.   He also gave him a prescription for an anti biotic to help ease the pain and infection.   At the next visit matters didn't get any better, the doctor was very concerned at the way the wound had grown and was not healing.  He took some cultures to see if he had some type of infection and had the nurse schedule an appointment for an MRI.

The day before the MRI he was seen by the primary doctor once again.   This time the ankle was not only very swollen but his foot was almost black in color and very cold.  This is caused by poor circulation of the blood and since it seems that dad is also having black outs it may be clotting of the arteries too.   The doctor said he was going to cancel  the MRI appointment because the cultures he had taken from the wound on the ankle had come back negative from any infection.   He looked very upset because the wound was not healing and said there was a possiblity that the ankle and foot now had gangrene!   .........Oh Lord what happened to my everyday wish for peaceful days?..............   My mouth dropped, I was speechless!    I don't think that dad really understood what he'd just been told because he kept talking and didn't really express anything one way or the other.  After excusing himself and going to consult with one of his colleagues about my dads predicament the doctor came back.    The result is that my dad will be seen by the top cardio vascular specialist in the IE who deals with these kinds of situations.  Someone would be calling to give us the date for an appointment.   BUT since dad is a new patient he will have to be worked into this doctors busy schedule and  because the soonest day for a normal appointment wouldn't be until late April they didn't know when it would be!!!!!    I prayed that his foot doesn't fall off before then, In Jesus Name.

Thank God the insurance approved everything; from one day to the next an appointment for a sonogram and consultation to see the specialist were made for a week later.    God answered my prayers Hallelujah!!!

In the mean time now Im having to deal with my brother who can't understand why we have to wait a little over a week for these appointments.  He even wanted his girlfriend to call and talk to the doctors about making the appointments sooner.   He's upset that Im not doing anything about it, little does he know.   What a laugh!!!!!   Oh me oh my,  where has he been for the past 8 months that I've been taking care of daddy without any input let alone help from him.   Im not complaining Lord Im just tired.     

'You can't force anyone to do anything.'   Thats what brother dearest told me when I asked him to come and take dad to see a doctor.   He told daddy to prop his foot up and the elevation would help the pain on his foot.  Thats what he does when his feet are tired and he doesn't go see doctors for that.

Now we wait and and I've explained to Daniel how the medical system works and why we are lucky and should be thankful that the doctors office and the insurance responded so fast and set appointments within a week and a half!

Im very worried but I have faith in God that he will see us through this situation and help ME cope with whatever the end result will be.  Which is that he may need to have his foot amputated.   


1 comment:

  1. OH NO!!!! We will immediately start praying for your Daddy! And for you to find some comfort in the arms of your Heavenly Father!! If I can be any help let me know!!!

    Love you Mama C!!!